we had some time during our visit to my grandfather today

my father knows i haven't decide wad career path i would take when i grow up

i told him before i'd either be a businessman or an engineer

cos afterall that's the only 2 subjects i take that's relevant

and the only 2 areas i have interest in

but if i were to chose one

i might chose to study business

or a financial analyst - or anything within the field

my father shook his head

he says 8 out of 10 youngsters he know all want to be businessman

i say i know

everytime he discourages me from being a businessman

i feel daunted like never before

i nv feared of the fact that so many ppl wants to make it big

they say only 1 out of 10 ppl will be successful businessman

i say im that 1

the intense competition dun matter

failure dun matter im sure i can handle

but when it comes to father's advice

from young till now it has never failed

so there's a conflict between 2 beliefs -

in myself - and my fathers'

both of which im so confident of always - yet they oppose

my father prefers me to be an engineer

or specifically a civil engineer

the ones that build bridges and MRT lines

he say why not i be a game designer

since i like to play so much

i say no

i say i wan a proper job

if i really want to be an engineer

then i can relac

why the endless pursuit for AAA

wan go engineering course get BCC or at most BBC sure can de ma

get good grades no meaning ma

is it because of peer pressure

is it because of comparing results with frens

is it to lead SRJC to glory

is it to make teachers happy

more justifiable is to make parents happy

or have the ability to help frens

would it be better if i focus on my studies now and tink of wad job i wan in the future

or would it be better to begin with the end in mind

apparently the answer seems to be the former

cos if i were to choose the latter, then i have to answer more questions

business or engineering?

study more or can slack abit?