(you can never finish reading -______-)

today

i shall attempt to write

the longest

blog entry

wakaka

so lets start off from where i stopped last week

last week was still the june holidays

to celebrate mouse's b'dae

we went out on tues

but all the spases cannot make it

the reasons that came from ziqian was like this :

Xiuyi and Yingxia wanted to study

Jinhe say no mood

May say since they all not going she also dun go

Ziqian last min smth crop up at home

we were to meet at PS at 2pm

but i was late by

10mins

to my horror

i was the first to arrive

lol

then i walk out and saw ch

and cy and Edwin were still wandering somewhere

but nvm

me and ch go Xzone play

den cy and edwin come

the present we gave edwin

was a high end pen

engraved with the name

CRAZZYMOUSEY

which was suggested by me

cos that's his maple nick

i bet he liked it :D

den

we went to fish and co to eat

den CY had to go to his teacher's wedding rehearsal

to take video

cos he say his teacher

is a nice person or smth

lol

CY is the chairman of the media club in CJ btw

that sounds like a job for a nerd though

-____________-

so

me and edwin and ch went to the new Cathay

to buy tickets for Cars at 9pm

while waiting for CY to return

then we went to Parklane there to play pool

wahahha

then

CY arrived juz on time

for the movie

=>

after that then go home le

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last friday

eehong came to my house

to play Maple

lol

cos he at home

he tell me

his mother and bro kp him

so he cannot play

den on Friday have an event

2x EXP

that's why

so he came at about 11am

while i was slping on the sofa -_______-

at first i woke up at 9am to wait for him

but in the end

i still buay tahan

and fell asleep waiting

cos i laz night slp very late

den

well

i rmb during sec1 sec2 days

eehong almost every day come my house

to play Runescape

lol

during those days

he also helped me alot with my studies

sometimes he go home with Chin-I

have to take 135 to AMK then transfer bus 169(?) to Yishun

very long trip

he say very lonely

so i will accompany them

zhss -> amk -> yishun

den take 965 back to sengkang

while zzzz on the bus

maybe thats why

i like to slp so much

eehong is juz too smart

a pity his english cui

during O lvl

get C6

all his other subs get A1

couldn't get into AJ

but now he taking triple sci in MJ + maths

and phy and chem 'S' paper

sick

our frenship can last so long

is all thanks to games

from runescape to neopets to dota to maplestory

he was playing with his lvl 87 ranger

wow

really shows how much time he spent on his studies

lol

anyway he left at about 3+pm le

oh ya

he brought his MP3 player with him

den transfer to my com

his MP3 player got 5Gig of Mp3 sia

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well

laz sunday

i went out with my family to eat a buffet style dinner

at the Paramount hotel

near parkway

its

dun have to take the food yurself

juz order via the waitress

towards the end of the dinner

my father was looking at the menu

well it was like this

although it was buffet style

it was stated that

each person can only order 100g of live prawns

to be cooked in 3 different styles

den my father was surprised

cos prawns are cheap

he was sure that

if he asked for more on the waitress

they will still give

but

my brother

insisted that

she(the waitress) wun

he said stuff like

"law is law LA"

"I know business law better than you LA"

"wanna challenge? i got take business law in TP"

showing disrespect to my father

keep on interrupting my father speech

and talking louder and louder each time

of coz

they say

dang ju zhe mi, pang guan zhe qing

i fully understand

wad my father was trying to say

but my bro was juz too heated and agitated to understand

well

my father's brother (uncle) opens a big restaurant like this in Ipoh

over there, its also the same

they limit the number so ppl can't order that much

but if customer request

they will give

but my brother

keep on bragging about his fking business law shit

that he din understand a fking thing

so my dad asked him

if you are the boss. and the customer wants more prawns. you give or not?

"NO."

"haha." my father replied, but din say further

ask me the same question, and my answer is yes.

my father turned to me and asked me if i understood wad he said

i nodded my head only

i din want to quarrel with my brother

dun want to spoil my mood

actually

im quite sick

of blogging about my dislike towards my elder brother

so i'll go through it once more

and no more

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lets start at me

being a kindergarden kid

the cute type one

lol

alright

at K1, as i was told, i showed great interest in chess

watching my father playing

and at K2

i learned from my father

chinese chess skillz

i started sparring with my elder bro

2yrs older than me

at that time

i rmb

when he lost

he'd just mess up the chess pieces

i don't remember losing to him

once

when i was in primary school

i started to realise

that my elder brother

is a selfish person

he juz

care about himself

and dun give a fk abt the others

my mother always scold him for that

stuff like fruits and food

he'd always eat the best stuff up

and the remaining stuff i eat

i never complained

and that's why i grew up to eat everything; anything will do

and my brother became picky, not eating vegatables

maybe i shud

thank my brother for that

but as time passed

i did felt abit unfair sometimes

i thot

its always the elder brother

that gave way

but i did

i always did

from the playstation to watermelon

i always held on to the shorter end of the stick

maybe you tink im petty

but at the age of 6 or 7

the dislike juz grew

naturally it did

never did anything happened that could

close the gap

cos my brother never expressed concern

and whenever i had problems with my studies

i never consulted him too

i rmb at primary sch

i had frens who had siblings to rely on

but i only had frens

and i grew to be independent

in my studies

then my aunt from UK heard of that

and bought me a whole set of Charlie Brown's Encyclopedia

which i read everyday

that's why i grew up to be a curious person

till today i still have it btw ^^

and i remember clearly

when I was primary 6

my mother bought a glass cup back home

the cup had two circumferences

and between them was a sealed volume of water

because i saw these kind of cups at Lawrence's(<--my P5 clsmate) house

i knew they were used as "ice"

put that cup into the freezer and the volume of water will be frozen

then you can have chilled drinks without adding ice

but my brother said "no"

he claimed that if i were to do that

the glass cup will crack

i insisted it wouldn't

my brother said that ice will expand and break the cup

i can remember clearly it sounded like this

"wo du de bi ni duo, ni bu yao gen wo chao!"

i was infuriated.

i din know that ice would expand,

but i read from the Charlie Brown Encyclopedia that matter expands in all directions

because the sealed water in the glass cup wasn't occupying the whole volume of space it was confined in

i thus deduced that the cup wouldn't break

the water wouldn't expand horizontally, but vertically.

at that time my brother critisized that the Charlie Brown's Encyclopedia was for kids

and my mother believed my brother

telling me to stop quarreling with him

i was beaten

even at 12 years old i felt that ego in me

i juz couldn't take it

saddened and disappointed

i never talked to my brother for days too

i swore that i will surpass my brother in my studies

which made me work doubly hard for my PSLE

i wouldn't have ended up in zhonghua if not for that too

juz few mths ago i saw my mother brought back the similar cup as though it was deja vu

it was a present from her colleague it was used to chill wine

you can't put ice in wine cos you'll spoil its taste when u dilute it

so you use the cup to chill it

how does it work?

put the cup in the freezer.

i didn't bring up my primary sch incident, i bet nobody remembered it.

but me.

throughout my primary and early secondary school days

there were always discussions that turned out to be quarrels

everytime i lost

the reason?

my brother has a higher education level than me.

i swore i am right but i juz can't win

my pride was hurt bad

during Sec 3 my brother turned to Christanity

and that was

THE END

i fking hate my brother then

he created chaos in the family

my mother cried and cried

and my father chided him

but he still insisited

my grandma scolded him

and even my auntie called to talk to him

nth worked

as a christian he couldn't hold jossticks

so for 2 qing ming jies, he never paid respects to my late grandfather

the time came when he was juz overboard

he started bringing in all the christianity into the family

every conversation he linked to God

i admit i was wrong about christianity,

but i wasn't wrong about the church

CityHarvest Church brainwashes.

don't try proving me wrong cos there's a living monstrous example living nx to me

there were countless incidents when my brother juz made my parents angry

there were countless times i shouted

and i was simply mad at him

that did no good to me either

i don't want to say again i tink i've typed them before

i really got crazy

i wonder what the church teach him

teach him to make parents angry? to turn the family upside down?

seriously, what the fk.

and it doesn't stop there

the most recent issue with him

is like this

my 2nd aunt called me to leave a note for my brother

asking him to tell her what is the food that my grandma wanted from him

apparently my grandma took fancy on something he was eating

but my brother refused to give it to her

and even refused to tell her what it is

at that time i was in school

i swear that if i was at home i would have insisted that he give it to my grandma

and threw him a ten dollar note in his face

(without my grandma hearing the commotion, of cos)

wtf is this, churches don't preach fillial piety?

fker.

my auntie called twice later on.

apparently he didn't reply to the note i left for him.

i forgot about the incident until last week i offered some Oreo to my grandma when she came over

but she didn't want cos she was drinking tea

she said in Hakka that i was obedient, got good things know how to share, unlike my brother

this really bitter feeling ran through me

mixed of sadness and anger

I don't understand why my brother seem to have a good circle of frens outside

but at home he shouts at my parents

2 mths ago my Dad wanted to go to his graduation

he is graduating from poly

my brother shouted at him for no reason "registration already close la...dun understand?"

apparently a letter has to be sent to the poly

but its too late

my father was bewildered about his attitude

and wtf! daddy paid so much for yur poly fees and you didn't even bother to remember to invite him to the graduation ceremony

in the end my mother had to call the poly, and they said ok

all these might sounds like small issues to you

but since young they juz keep coming at me

until its irrecoverable especially when he joined the church

its juz gone

you wun really get it

you're not me anyway

that's been through these crap

when my brother was born he was diagnoised with G6PD

and with that "illness" he cannot take aspirin and certain drugs cos its fatal

recently my brother went for a checkup

the doctor's report was : he doesn't have G6PD

and this was weird because 19 years ago at the KK hospital where he was born

the doctor told my mother that

G6PD is for LIFE

so during dinner

my mother passed a remark that maybe he isn't her real son

at that point in time

i was elated. euphoric. as though i saw HOPE

but i didn't show it.

i really wish it is true. secretly i did.

i wished my real brother is out there somewhere

and he can care for me

and teach me Cmaths

share things with me

love me

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wow

finally holidays over

Mid year exam has started

I had my GP paper on Monday

I chose to write

about GM food

eh?

pls dun tell teacher

i spent 0 effort on GP

evry word i wrote in the essay

is tok cock only

den the compre was written in greek

i also tok cock as usual

so

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tues was my C Maths

Paper 1

i love to blog about my C Maths

as usual

and as usual,

i never study much also

hmm

as usual alot of questions i cannot fully answer

and as usual, i detest the sight of

sin and cos

and integrations

and e^ and ln

but smth not usual was

i actually used up

all but one of the foolscap given

i din leave blanks for the questions i don't know how to answer

i usually did in the past

for corrections

and another thing not usual was

i actually almost din have enough time to finish

maybe

im improving?

=)

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today is my Econs P3

i did qns 1 3 5

Q1 was on

dd and elasticity

Q3 inflation

Q5 depreciation

i tink

i spent too much time choosing

and planning

the paper was 2h 15min

one qn supposed to only use 45min

den

i was lagging by 10mins after each question

which meant that

my last question

i started with 35mins left

and then

it all began

the feared

"panic cycle"

as wad i choose to name it

it wrks like dis

Not enough time -> panic; can't think -> tell myself to calm down -> waste time -> panic

aiya

den Mr Neo kept walking up and down and stop to look at my essay

den I was shivering in the air con hall

den times up liao

question 5 part a 10 marks i write 2 sides

part b 15 marks i write 1 side

wow

lol

yeah

i've completed

my longest blog entry

tyty