i've been going to school for the past few days

i don't know why either

for the past week there would probably be 6 or 7 ppl lined up during assembly for my class

and i'd be the last to come

i don't really learn a lot from the lectures conducted, even though now its a smaller group

but that's normal

i don't learn alot from lectures, why would the number of ppl in the LT matter >.>

most of the time the LT would be 20% filled though (<--sounds better than 80% empty) well today GP lecture was perhaps more interesting they went through our prelim essay, qn 10 "are blogs a blessing or a curse" only then did i realise how bad my writing was >.>

then later not enough time, and as usual, they teachers would say

"alright its time to stop"

"i'll upload the remaining slides on Aspire" (<--srjc website for students)

"please go home, read through what is left in Aspire tonight"

most students are likely to heave a sigh of relief after knowing that xxxxx will be uploaded on Aspire, they usually do, perhaps 90 times out of 100

then i ask myself how many times i've been on Aspire

im not quite sure actually...but distinctly, its twice

1st was during last year's i-Learn Day

the 2nd time was for this year's i-Learn Day

been on and off for some online tests as well but randomly picking answers for MCQ don't really count right

and for maths lectures i'll try to pretend im listening to the lecturer while staring at the screen trying to find out what the question is asking about before the teacher switches to the solution set because i never bring the qn paper and needless to say, never attempted it too

school is almost a waste of time now(for me) so those who choose to stay home and study instead, i applaud you for yur spirit...

but the word 'almost' seems to suggest that going to school is better than something...

which is(for me) not going to school, because i'll spend the time sleeping and when i wake up at 1pm (which is when the school ends) i'll still feel as tired as i would be if i had woken up at 6am...

so i tink i'll go to school and hope that i could get some motivation from my clsmates

cos those who still go to sch are the more guai ones (i think)

oh nvm actually all i think of is Rachel now, like a big sis that everyone can look up to (don't tell her i said this)

and sometimes i can get some gd general knowledge out of her...besides horoscope...palm reading...etc

so today at the study area outside LT4 i was drawing up my Econs mindmap and decided to take a strepsils(?) drop that i bought earlier on cos of a minor sore throat probably cos of the haze

she said she heard that strepsils have side effects...can affect yur hearing

yea usually i would give stupid response like "really?"

but i was one step faster for that time

"wad did u juz say?"

out of all of the lessons, the most beneficial would be Mr Yeo's tutorials - extra lessons conducted for us - generally its juz revision - and in detail too

and wad Mr Neo(<--our econs tchr) said not long ago is right - he said something like having a very good teacher is our downfall

you'll probably not understand if you don't like yur teachers but simply putting it - the teacher teach so well that the student think no need revise liao

=/

stayed back in sch for revision - yh put it as 'vincent dated us for revision' or smth like dat

but it wasn't fruitful cos i had a slight headache as though the top right corner of my skull is caving in

and i was feeling quite sleepy

but that's normal

i feel sleepy all the time

uh...and

i've deleted most of my frequently played games and told my DoTA kah kees that i've done so...well i tink edwin knows i was going to do it anyway - juz too bad the last day that i wanted to delete it, i called you on for DoTA but u said u wanted to sleep, if you remember =.=

its not useful, honestly, and that's why im bored

i have tons of free time now but im not using it well

maybe i really need grp study to keep me going

to me, revision is like this

when i feel like it, i'll go for it. when i go for it, i make sure i make the most out of it. the conditions must be perfect, and nobody must disturb me. 30mins later, regardless of whether my brain has saturated or not, i'll make belief that my brain has saturated, and i'll switch. to what? DoTA!...

in fact a day after i've gotten back my Maths prelim results i was going up the escalator on my way to school in Kovan MRT and i thought to myself

GOODNESS ZW...

AO(<---this means FAIL/noob, for the poly students) for MATHS and i really wonder how i can take it so easily...i should be extremely worried and i should do something about it

i was walking and nodding my head along the walkway to the bus stop

i recall the times

O lvl times!

after moderation my points was 19, it was 23 or 24 at first?

i was quite certain that when i got 23 or 24 i started to get nervous then

yeah...im quite sure

such a thought is supposed to translate into some positive motivation

for eg. TODAY im going to push for MATHS...

but guess what, when i boarded the bus i told myself

"nvm, its not 'F' anyway"

and the subject erased off my mind

hmm

anyway

now everytime i think of maths

i'll think of a hill

wonder will there be a day when i think of maths

i'll tell ppl i see it in a poultry farm

and they

"huh?"

and i

"you mean u din know? Maths is chicken feet!"

oh wait...such a day existed actually

primary school days

>.>