I shall wrap up my BSLC life before i fall on my bed and wake up tml. Its 10:46am now. Abt 15 hrs ago, i was about to embark on the toughest journey of my life.

The motivation to complete the 28km route march is...to have yur PC put on the Ng diao (corporal rank) on us. its also called the graduation march. we were telling ourselves that when the sun rises, we'd all be corporals. it was 8pm. the most apt song we sang along the way was the "when darkness turns to light, it ENDS TONIGHT, IT ENDS TONIGHT!"

but it actually ended much earlier at 3+ am cos the pace was fast.

First 8km was still very much ok...but people started to fall out after that. i was the front scout for my company with my sect comdr and i saw quite a few Foxtrot trainees derailing from their company and then sent to the safety rover.

After 12km ppl already start to limp...and as for me, i had mysterious cuts on my sole. O.o

The next 8km i almost vomited cos i drank too much water. lol. i was telling my buddy "vomit then vomit lor...vomit also can walk wad" <-- act tough...LOL. he was having a bad muscle ache. I was pulling him by his uniform up those steep slopes and got to encourage him.

At some point in time when i felt the worst, i started to wonder what the fuck am i doing in this place...walking with so much load on my shoulders...*#@($&#@$&#)!

the stronger ones were the only ones left singing...the rest all walking like zombies...and our voices sounded so desperate. sounds quite scary at times. but it helps to take our mind off the distance and vent our frustrations anyway.

"Training to be Specialists,
Fight for our la-and,
Once in our lives,
Total waste of time!

Have you ever wonder-er?
Why must we ser-erve?
Why must we ser-erve?
Why must we ser-erve?

Why must we ser-erve?
Why must we ser-erve?
Why must we ser-erve?
Why must we ser-erve?

Why must we ser-erve?
Why must we ser-erve?
Why must we ser-erve?
Why must we ser-erve?

(about 1km later...)

Why must we ser-erve?
Why must we ser-erve?
Why must we ser-erve?
Why must we ser-erve?

Becos we have no choice,
And we lan lan have to serve,
have to serve, ya!

Looking all around us!
People everywhere-ere
Children having fun,
While we are holding gun,

have you ever wonder-er!
why must we serve...


...and we completed it anyway. not like i will fall out anyway...my ego too big to deal with the consequences of falling out...lol

Posting order -

ASLC. The first word that came to my mind when my PC read it out to me was the F word. At the moment in time i felt frustrated cos many ppl in my platoon posted to be medic...signallers...provost...RSAF!.. ...but to do admin work...those ppl can really enjoy the rest of their NS life.

While i will suffer another 3 mths in Sispec to go through even more tough times than what has BSLC given me. more SOC, more IPPT, 32km route march, outfields...

1 week ago i juz witnessed the ASLC ppl pass out as infantry specs...including sergeant Caleb!...it was amazing. suddenly like everyone want to go ASLC...except me.

my bunk mates were excited abt getting posted to ASLC. something must be wrong. i tink i just can't see past the suffering and all the physical challenges. haiz. WEAK!