Its CNY AGAIN! Every yearly festival is like a proof of how time flies isn't it?

In the last few hrs of the eve of CNY i was somewhere out there in Chinatown with my parents. We were a distance from the stage and the crowd was overwhelming.

Previously on our way there, there was so much pushing and squeezing that a group of ppl about 15m away from us fell like dominos in the crowd...which caused quite a commotion. My hands were by my side all along whilst being nudged from all sides. ('nudge', im sure, is a very polite word to describe all that pushing)

Fireworks lit up the night sky when the countdown hit 0, and we always find them beautiful but i was wondering why, since we can see them in videos and photos, and then i figured that the atmosphere down there and the occasion made all the difference and made it special.

The end of the fireworks was followed by the sounds of many blasting fireworks and i could feel my eardrums thumping inside.

The night after that, i was somewhere in the midst of a very crowded chun dao he pan.

I don't really believe in all the horoscope and this and that but for the sake of fufilling my curiousity i just had to take a look at the prospects for the Dragon in the Year of the Rat.

Career prospects was first on top, and the 2nd sentence read: "Do not argue with your boss. blahblahblah."

Great!

I don't really remember what i read that night but the general idea i got was that everything - career, wealth, love and health -- nothing is good. Everything that they had to say about the Dragon is bad. (nobody would want to believe it now. lol)And maybe its true! Less the health part, how can i get anything good out of the other three whilst serving NS?

Probably the best i can do is to make sure i dun fall sick or get injured from some stupid reason.

Oh. its 10th feb already. This. IS. 1 YEAR and 1 DAY from my ORD! (I will ORD on 11th feb 09.)

Freedom. is. nearing!

Its like i entered a small dark tunnel and walked and walked and walked and finally i see some light. (Er...sounds weird.)

10mths minus 2 days ago, i remember, i was at the SFT at changi in the morning(SAF Ferry Terminal). That was a milestone in my life. My brain, by default, presents myself an image of that place whenever the word 'enlistment' is mentioned. I was there, with hair, in a black shirt and jeans, with my parents and grandma.

I guess i was pretty emotionless that day - there was no reason to feel sad or whatsoever because i've been mentally preparing myself anyway and i knew it had to come. But there was no reason to be happy either. (duh)

What i didn't mentally prepare myself well enough was - i never thought 1yr10mths wouldn't be forever, i never thought it would end.

But now i can see it.