as much as i try to be skeptical towards the book, the words seem to creep out of the book and pull me in, putting me in first person as if i was lectured and questioned of my character and integrity, my beliefs, my views.

and the deeper i sink in, the more I get disappointed with myself, despite always believing that i'd loved my country, and really, that i probably didn't really know my country well.

other than the 22mths i gave away to the country, the rest of my life was probably spent just for myself, my self interests, and nothing else.

i feel powerless in affecting the environment around me, and the people around me.

in an era where knowledge is relatively expensive and ignorance runs wild like a raging bull and an infectious strain, where do i stand?

i feel so humbled

at least i know that i don't know

i feel so small